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byeee [30 Nov 2009|12:53am] hellozzzz. haha i still rmb my first entry here was something like 'i hope this lasts longer than a month'. it's been a year and im bored of lj heeeee moving back to blogger kbaiii ^^v here!

so strung out on you [25 Nov 2009|11:47pm] someone needs to remind me to follow my own advice. must go for lesson. How to stop caring 1001. hahah nooo waiiizzz T.T so anyway what happened was, the uncle at the chicken rice stall in coro gave me $5 extra for change, and on the way out i realised, but didn't think of giving it back to him. i was just like, yay money. haha. fml. ok but anyway that night i found out that i missed my accounting exam cos i misread the date -.- damn stupid omg. and then the next day after i went to get an mc and everything, i went back to the shop and gave him back the $5. i think money that doesn't rightfully belong to you might actually be cursed. and i know this much is truuuuooooee babyy youuuuu have become my addictionnnn i actually like ne-yo. hohhohoo ^^v ... at least he can sort of sing hahah. i dont wanna study anymore! one exam over and i'm already feeling exponentially better. i remember wishing during the paper today that i'd studied harder. i want to do really well, not just good enough. but then when it comes down to it i.e. now, i feel like i can't be bothered. ooo something i was thinking about. you know how we always tend to wish our lives were really exciting and fun and filled with drama and all that. well i always thought i wanted life to be like that. but maybe i'm just not cut out for it. when exciting/scary things DO happen i just can't wait for them to be over, cos i hate that nervous anticipatory jittery butterfly-y feeling. hate exams, hate getting into trouble, hate fighting with people. i feel like i can't eat/sleep properly. maybe i'm just meant for the forever curl up in bed with a book listening to whiny music life. that's kind of sad. how to stop ): omggg. i want to go overseas. don't make me stay here. i love singapore and i love my flenz but this place is really not right for me anymore. it's driving me nuts. k AABB. KGO. (1)

[23 Nov 2009|10:43pm] nooooo ): i am sad

heels turn black [20 Nov 2009|01:26pm] i need money really badlyyyy. at first i was kind of relieved that marsk fired me because that means no more of dealing with his constant scolding and whining and CRYING fml. but now in my state of no phone (yaaa my line got cut off AGAIN) and no money i can't seem to concentrate on studying, cos obviously when you study you need to spend a lot to pamper yourself and make yourself as comfortable as possible, ie. namely with FOOD. or perhaps i should just take this as a sign from God that i'm getting too fat and He's making me lose weight for my own good. kgo anyway exams are in 3 days. as usual i'm not prepared but my few months of NUS have made me so used to last minute studying by now that this is no longer a big deal. three days to cover a term's worth of content for two modules actually seem quite long and chillax. i'm actually worried about end of exams, cos of all the PRU stuff. omg. i hope no one from PRU ever reads this. but argh i keep wondering if i made a really bad decision joining. it's like a triangle trying to squeeze through a circle, in the words of missy higgins. hah i really do wonder what i'm going to end up doing after i graduate. zero motivation for anything i've found so far. is it normal to have completely NO idea of what you want to do, one year into a business degree, other than that it's not business? it's pretty strange that there isn't the whole 'i cant wait for exams im gonna have so much fun' thing anymore. in fact now exams give me an excuse to not attend all the PRU things and just hang out with friends (albeit studying). after exams is like an AVALANCHE of events + tuition + thank god i didn't sign up for internships and what nots. i don't even wanna fly back to vietnam. i don't know how people juggle their lives so well. i'm still bummed that px and juang and dawn aren't coming back. it's not 'i miss you but at least im seeing you soon', it's just 'i miss you but too bad'. it's not even like it's a temporary thing, it's just this and four years of this and after that, many more years of this, and forever more of this. i really ought to have treasured IB more. but life goes onnn. i shall go to coro now and spend the last of my few remaining dollars on a blueberry muffin and not move until i finish 6 topics of accounting and 1 of ps2237. OI AMEENAH. pick me up from coro. kgo!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (1)

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